But some things do change, and this week I will be talking about what's going on right this minute.
Here you see the view to the north from the meadow above my house. The tall mountain is Cone Peak, the tallest in this section of the Santa Lucia Range.
As I write this, for just under two months there has been a fire to the north, sometimes covering the area in smoke, so that on some days even seeing across the canyon is difficult. Most of the time the wind has tended to blow the smoke away to the north and east, so I haven't had it as bad as a lot of people. The fire is still there, slowly moving in several directions at once. Every day I check the fire maps online.
This has been a time of fear, and of loss for many people. I wait to see what the fire will do. Every day it seems more possible that it will stay within the lines and grow smaller, not larger, which is my dear prayer. Through this time, I have felt many transformational energies letting me know that things will never be the same, no matter how it turns out.
Business in Big Sur dried up, for seven weeks. People became overwhelmingly depressed for weeks at a time. I did the preparation for evacuation, in case I needed to run for it, and then after several weeks I got so tired of living out of a pile of suitcases that I put it all away, after having gotten rid of a sizeable pile of things that aren't worth taking (so why have them?). I donated whatever I thought could be of value to others, and threw out a lot of stuff. After a while I just got too tired to move stuff around any more. And then came the fruit harvest...abundance in the midst of upheaval..my emotions were all over the map.
Forced to change my focus, I struggled with emotional drama and fear on a daily basis, until it simply became too boring to continue. Inspiration appeared in flashes of insight at unexpected times. New perspectives and creative ideas came out of nowhere.
I started to get a grip.
My coach kicked my butt, fierce woman that she is, and told me that I need to focus on my mission, no matter what else is going on. This is an opportunity to learn new ways of doing things, to improve my skills and my strengths, to get really , really able to concentrate. She challenged me to stick with building my business, and my life, into what I want it to be.
And so I am doing that. I've written new programs, picked up new connections, forced myself to pick up the phone. Some days I wonder what in the world it all could be about, and then I just say, keep going, that's what it's about.
A whole new picture of what my life is, what I can do and be, is beginning to emerge. The next season will be different.
With smoke all around me, I looked in the mirror and said, "Girl, you gotta do this. Make it change, make it happen, lean into it."
I'll be on the road more often, and upping my game as a speaker. This is exciting new energy that will allow me to reach out to a lot more people.
The pressure of the fire, and the close examination it has brought into my life, are forces that have had their say. I'm listening, grateful for the blessings of safety and of support form the many people who have contacted me to offer help if needed. I am deeply moved to feel so loved. Thanks for being part of my life.
Here on the mountain, the next season I'll be doing more focused styles of hosting, writing retreats and nature group activities. Since I'll be out in the world more, I want the time here to be of the highest value it can, for myself and for others. Do you have a project that you really want to get focused on? Take some time out in nature and refresh your soul! Get a recharge, or a fresh start.
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